Summer '14

I realize that the last time I wrote I went off on a rant. Honestly, things have gotten a bit better since then. Not only am I volunteering at the hospital, but I am also (hopefully) getting a job at a nursing home. The last couple weeks of school were tough, I mean, you get so accustomed to the same routine with the same people, that when things change it almost hurts for you to let go. I had a pretty hard time getting used to all the changes that have happened in my life but I learned to accept the things I couldn't change. A friend of mine had been very insistent on my joining of the youth group she attended at our church. At first I was a bit pessimistic. My parents raised me catholic but as a grew older, I grew further and further away from any sort of religious group. Out of pity, I accepted her offer and it was probably one of the best decisions I have ever made. Not only has youth group helped me regain my faith, but it has also helped me reconnect with myself. As of now, I am not completely happy with the way my life is going but I am not ungrateful. Sure, I am having a bit of heart ache right now, but I know that it will soon fade. Summer 2014 will be one that I will remember. (Yes, my post was random and all over the place)

High School

God, it feels like it's the first miserable day of high school again. Same people, same stench, same stupid assignments that no one wants to do. Growing up I always imagined that high school would be glorious, amazing, life changing; but instead it's been nothing but late nights crying over classes I'm probably going to fail. I don't like high school, I simply do not enjoy it. I love learning new things and being around nice people, but in high school  you're surrounded by low self-esteemed egotistical people who would rather be out smoking than actually getting somewhere in life. High school is a giant competition. All that teachers care about are grades. That's all they give a damn about, and honestly, it's absolutely ridiculous. I can't stand the fact that I haven't learned shit. It drives me crazy that I sit at home ripping my hair out of my skull and bawling my eyes out over an assignment that I will never need to use in the real life. I'm sick of teachers teaching useless concepts. I'm sick of dealing with a bunch of people who only care about themselves. I can't stand school anymore. I feel like I'm trapped, and even though I'm in my Junior year of high school, I wish that I would've decided to graduate early.