Saturday, June 7, 2014

Summer '14

I realize that the last time I wrote I went off on a rant. Honestly, things have gotten a bit better since then. Not only am I volunteering at the hospital, but I am also (hopefully) getting a job at a nursing home. The last couple weeks of school were tough, I mean, you get so accustomed to the same routine with the same people, that when things change it almost hurts for you to let go. I had a pretty hard time getting used to all the changes that have happened in my life but I learned to accept the things I couldn't change. A friend of mine had been very insistent on my joining of the youth group she attended at our church. At first I was a bit pessimistic. My parents raised me catholic but as a grew older, I grew further and further away from any sort of religious group. Out of pity, I accepted her offer and it was probably one of the best decisions I have ever made. Not only has youth group helped me regain my faith, but it has also helped me reconnect with myself. As of now, I am not completely happy with the way my life is going but I am not ungrateful. Sure, I am having a bit of heart ache right now, but I know that it will soon fade. Summer 2014 will be one that I will remember. (Yes, my post was random and all over the place)

Saturday, March 22, 2014

High School

God, it feels like it's the first miserable day of high school again. Same people, same stench, same stupid assignments that no one wants to do. Growing up I always imagined that high school would be glorious, amazing, life changing; but instead it's been nothing but late nights crying over classes I'm probably going to fail. I don't like high school, I simply do not enjoy it. I love learning new things and being around nice people, but in high school  you're surrounded by low self-esteemed egotistical people who would rather be out smoking than actually getting somewhere in life. High school is a giant competition. All that teachers care about are grades. That's all they give a damn about, and honestly, it's absolutely ridiculous. I can't stand the fact that I haven't learned shit. It drives me crazy that I sit at home ripping my hair out of my skull and bawling my eyes out over an assignment that I will never need to use in the real life. I'm sick of teachers teaching useless concepts. I'm sick of dealing with a bunch of people who only care about themselves. I can't stand school anymore. I feel like I'm trapped, and even though I'm in my Junior year of high school, I wish that I would've decided to graduate early.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

I'm back

I'm back.
My last post on this blog was on June 1, 2012, and it is now March 9, 2013.
As you may or may not have noticed, several things have already changed about this blog in the few minutes that I have had it open today. For example, the title, "Distant Dreams" has been changed, the template has also been changed. Why? I'm not particularly sure.
I'm not the same person I was 10 months ago. Now, I'm not saying that's a bad thing.
To start with, I'm now a sophomore in high school, and to be completely honest, I'm not completely sure if I like it or not. I've had a lot of things going on lately and I'm pretty sure I have no life. Not that I ever did...
Reading over my past posts...I have to say, I sound like an idiot. Which is okay, because I am.
I won't delete any of my previous posts though, that way, I can actually remember what I did a couple years ago, because right now, I don't even know who I am.
I'm still vegetarian, I still love music, and I'm sixteen and in love with Pokemon.
One thing that has definitely changed these last 10 months is my music taste.
Around the time that I last posted, I started to listen to several different bands, and now that's pretty much all I listen to.
I'm still in band, and I'm section leader of the Clarinets. That's pretty legit.
I can admit that right now I'm rambling on because I have nothing better to do.
To make things worse, I'm sick, and the musical I'm in starts this week.
Right now, I'm in my pajamas, listening to Of Mice & Men, and trying to avoid human contact.
My typical Saturday night.
I'm not going to make any promises and say that I'm going to post more often.
I have a pretty tight schedule and honestly, blogging isn't necessarily top thing on my to-do list.
What I will say though, is that I'll occasionally write about the things I'm interested in, that, or I will rant.
Don't say I didn't warn you.
Goodbye for now.

Friday, June 1, 2012


Ahh! June 1, 2012. What a lovely day it is. Perfect warm weather outside to sit here and blog. (; Like I was saying yesterday,this year has gone by really fast. Sophomore year is here..... And I can almost drive. Yes. Well I guess you all are wondering why I'm writing a non sense, no subject, blog. Well, I just downloaded the Blogger app on my android and I thought I'd just test it. I apologize. Well I'll think of something better to write ^^ good day, mate!

Thursday, May 31, 2012


Ok. So I know what you guys are thinking. "OH NO. IT'S HER AGAIN? I THOUGHT WE GOT RID OF HER!!!" didn't! (; So it's obviously been a reallllly long time since I've been on here and I'm pretty sure no one's going to read this but Hey! It's worth the shot. Wow. This year has seriously gone by SO fast. I'm a sophomore now! Yay. haha. Well, I guess highschool's going to go by even faster. Which is kinda sad. I mean, I know sometimes I just wish I could grow up as soon as possible but most of the time, I still like my mom cutting up my vegetables. Kidding. I know I said I was going to try to be vegan but as many of you have already guessed. I failed. BUT, don't worry, I still don't eat any animals....unless you count gummy bears or animal crackers. I guess this year has just been, pretty darn amazing! I've met new people, tried new things, and I've also discovered new things about myself along the way. Man. It has been a long time since I've been on here. So what am I supposed to write about again? haha Kidding. Wellllll it's 11:37 pm on a Thursday night so I'll let you children sleep! I'll try to write more often but I won't make any promises! Peace!

PS: follow me on twitter! Susselie44 (:

*Stay Gold*

Thursday, July 21, 2011


 Alright so it's been a week since I decided to go Vegan and I admit...I haven't been doing so good :/ I admit I've eaten some things I'm not supposed to but Cut me some slack! It's not easy, AT ALL!!! But I'm determined to follow through with it. So far, I guess I could be doing a little better. I decided that one day each month I'll give myself a break and eat what I'm not supposed to. Just until I get used to my new lifestyle....Which should be a while. I knew this was going to be a hard thing to do but I didn't think it would be this hard. It's very hard when people offer you food and you have to say no, even though you really want to say yes. Most of the people who know about my new "diet" think I'm absolutely crazy. But it's my decision, but.........I AM crazy haha Just kidding ;)  I hope I can get used to this soon but then again, I know it's going to take some time. Well that's all for now... I'll keep you guys posted.!.

*Stay Gold*

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Things you should know about me.

Okay so Hey there! These are just a few things you should know about me...... since your reading my blog :3
1. My name is Sussel :3
2. My favorite color is Purple, but i love all colors
3. My biggest pet peeve is Stereotyping
4. I'm Trying to be Vegan, but its REALLY hard.
5. I hate when people bash on other people.
6.My favorite number is 4
7. I LOVE music!!♥
8. I love Christofer Drew♥
9. I hate being told what to do
10.I wish I knew how to longboard
11. I hate when people make a big deal about being in a relationship
12. I hate guys or girls who are jerks
13. I hate people with big egos
14. I hate when people say "Oh im so fat or ugly"..etc, so that people can tell them otherwise.
15. I hate bugs, but love animals.
16. I like when people are nice :3
17. I like emo haircuts, their cool X)
18. I want to be famous
19. I want to go around the world
20.I wish wishes actually came true :3
Hahaha well that's all for now!!
*Stay Gold*